agency > corporate

Bossman:Hey! Welcome back! How was your flight?
Me:It was cool, you know, the usual. My neck is hurting something serious though.
Bossman:Yeah, I'm considering getting one of those pillows. I don't care how stupid I look.
Me:Uh... I can't do it. You can look dumb first and let me know how it works for you. Then maybe I'll give it a shot.
Bossman:Sure, no problem. So, how does your schedule look for the rest of today?
Me:Pretty open. I wanted to get a massage during lunch though - my neck is seriously super stiff.
Bossman:Okay, go for it. Go take care of yourself and let me know when you're back to sit in on some meetings.
Me:We have some web work to sort through before *client* gets in town, I can knock it out before lunch?
Bossman:Nah, go get a massage. Go get a $5 coffee from Urth. Take care of yourself. See ya later!

PAUSE.

Having music play on the background of a website is so… 1998?? Not only have I recently had a client want this for his high end Rottweiler breeding website, I’ve stumbled across it on any Tumblr-er under the age of 22. Is this back in the same way that acid wash denim cutoffs are? What’s next: mullets?

There’s nothing worse than calmly pursuing the internetz for inspiration and/or checking emails and then having some techno dance retro pop mix of Lady Gaga and TI with Drake in the background start blasting out of nowhere. Better yet, when multiple versions of these start playing simultaneously from the plethora of windows I always have open. And I have to figure out which tabs have music so I can pause that shit and resume listening to Beethoven on Pandora.

Kids these days…

FREE

I love the freedom that Tumblr allows - a sidestep from my incestuous industry where there are times that it feels like high school all over again. I love following people who’s posts, pages, thoughts, writing, photography, rants, raves, musings, etc I admire. I love sharing this medium of self-expression with them… and perhaps nothing else. It is superficial and yet, a deeper connection that I have with most people I know in real life.

Thank you all for indulging in this freedom with me. It is but a small piece of sanity in an insane world.

REST/LESS

I am tired of feeling incompetent. I am tired of realizing that the perfect girl/friend I strive to be is unattainable. I am tired of trying so damn hard - at looking cute, at being funny, at discovering the right balance of dorky and cool - without any of it being noticed. I am tired of the sleepless nights I stare awake at my ceiling, tears streaking down my face wondering if these thoughts will ever go away. I am tired of fighting for you.. for me… for US. I am tired of the hurt; the hurt that pierces so fucking deep I can no longer love because I am so numb. I am tired of blowing my nose and piling the tissues into neat little pyramids on my desk, the only small insignificant conquest that I have complete control over in this given moment, or so it seems. I am tired of arguments via pixelated digital renditions of one another. I am tired of my past haunting me. I am tired of the hypocrisy. I am tired of the unspoken judgment surpassed after every movement, every decision. I am tired. Goodnight.

spy for me

Amy (in Arizona):Your hunny is doing what he does best ;)
Me:Awww yay! Keep the groupies off him!!! hehehe
Amy:Hah you know I got you boo! Eyes like a spy lol
Me:aahahaha YESSS.